Diary of a Woman with Endometriosis

Endometriosis is a mysterious condition that commonly occurs in ovaries, it has no known causes, yet affects many women out there. Before its diagnosis, one could suffer terrible mentral cramps, after its diagnosis, terrible mood swings. This is my account of how endometriosis has affected MY life and how it is continuing to affect ME and those around me. How it has shaped my life and I hope to bring about the awareness of this condition as it affects more women out there then we know it.

Saturday, February 16, 2008

Easier Said than Done

Does guilt wear you out?

Recently, the topic of guilt was brought into a few conversations and it seems like many have been badly hit by this invisible feeling of incredible pain. It also have the connotation of hiding the feeling of guilt as well. So not only you are feeling guilty about something, you also tend not to want to show it. Interesting eh?

Then it hit me that this guilt thing has also eaten me up quite a few times. I wont say that I'm so totally over it, there are days when it comes back to haunt me.

So what do I do about it?

I tell myself to look forward. To look at all those people whom I want to cherish around me and NOT make that same mistake as I did with the others in the past.

If given the opportunity, I would apologise to those whom I've hurt badly in the past and seek their forgiveness.

I have apologised to quite a few people already and since it was in the past, most have forgotten about the incident also! WHAT a relief!

I know its usually easier said than done especially if you are living in a bottomless pit of guilt daily....

HONESTLY, realistically, there's nothing one can do to change what's being done. So be sincere with your apologies and move on. Literately, kick out all those bad feelings and fill your mind/heart with new, positive ones.

Life is short... enjoy the ride!