Trusting God when I don't understand

Its hard to trust someone or something that you cannot quite see can you?

My 1st encounter with Christ was in a very charismatic set up, after the usual ra-ra to get new comers to a corner. I was sat face to face with a firm evangelist. She told me that I can trust Jesus with 101% of my life. If I was on the edge of a cliff, all I need to do is reach out and call out to Christ and He'll be there to save me. She asked me if I was ready to jump off the cliff. I stared at her with disbelief. Christ as my saviour was such a novel concept, I barely knew Him. How can I trust someone whom I do not know with my life?

After a long journey of meeting Christ and journeying in His love, I've come to know Him and the wonders He does for me. I got my baptism without family objections (coming from a gigantic ancestral family of taoism believers, this was a miracle). The enormous sense of love that I've felt during our wedding was phenomena. I was deeply touched by the Holy Spirit. Yes, I can feel Him. And I'm so grateful. Whenever I meet a challenging situation in our marriage, I'll recall that beautiful day when we celebrate our covenant with God as our witness. I am comforted that God is the one in charge, He will turn situations into learning points. He will be the one who decides how our future will be and He will never let us down. And all the toughness of the situation will just melt away.

For those who have been following this blog, I've been challenged medically & physically. We've been trying to have our own child for the past 6 years of our marriage. Yet, only till now then I truly know that I can rely on God's great love and plans for us, for our future, only He knows best what's good for us.

There were many occasions when my rational mind asks "why?"

But its only truly till now that I can let go of my rational mind and trust in God to take care of me. He knows the best for me. And I've learnt to trust God when I don't understand. And still learning.

Thank you God for your love for me. Thank you for loving me despite my ignorance, my foolishness, my stubbornness. Thank you for showing me time and time again how much you love me. Thank you for giving me life's greatest cushions (friends) to me. For with their humanly support, I can be a better person as I learn to be more like Christ. Thank you for building all the learning steps for me. I love you God.


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Sunday, March 07, 2010
Trusting God when I don't understand
by Rick Warren
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6 (NIV)
When the children of Israel were finally set free from Egypt after 400 years of slavery, they started marching out to freedom and the first thing they came to was the Red Sea. There were impassable mountain ranges on two sides of them, the sea in front of them.

Behind them, in hot pursuit, was the Egyptian army because the Pharaoh had changed his mind about letting them go. The path before the Israelites looked like a dead end.

But God knew exactly what He wanted to do. He had not made a mistake. He could see what they could not see. He opened the Red Sea and they walked through to safety. Years later, the Israelites looked back and sang, "Your road led by a pathway through the sea—a pathway no one knew was there!" (Psalm 77:19 LB).

You may be facing a dead end right now—financial, emotional, relational—but God can see a path that you don't know about. If you will trust God and keep on moving in faith, even when you don't see a way, He will make a way.

It will become more understandable as you head down the path he sets before you, but understanding is not a requirement for you to start down the path. Proverbs 4:18 says, "The path of the righteous is like the first gleam of dawn, shining brighter till the full light of day" (NIV). One day you will stand in the full light of eternity and view the big picture. You'll see God's purpose behind the path He specifically chose for you.

What do I do in the meantime? You do what Proverbs 3 says: "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." What does He mean "don't lean on your own understanding"? You don't need to try to figure it out. In truth, you're not going to understand most of the things that happen in your life until you get to heaven.

Be patient. God knows what He's doing. God knows what's best for you. He can see the end result. You can't. All those problems, heartaches, difficulties and delays -- all the things that make you ask "why" -- one day it will all be clear in the light of God's love.

But for now, we're learning to trust God.