Ringing words

Its such a fine line between sanity and insanity. Have you experienced watching a perfectly normal human who suddenly lost his mind? Well, I have, perhaps on more than 1 occasion. Which comes to mind that I may be next.

After that conversation with my used-to-be-close friend last week, I was very busy trying to fight the inner demons inside me to get myself used to the harsh facts that my time is not here yet. And then the weekend arrived. Dragging my feet, I went out to meet a bunch of close friends whom we have kept in close contact for the past few years and also this used-to-be-close friend.

I was sat at the far end of the table from all the action of conversation which was great cos I was also fighting the Z monster.

Interestingly, their chit-chat content seems to be a repetition of what we chatted during the lunch we had. So I sat to listen to their varied views and kept munching on the desserts on the table. Some jokes were cracked and some time later, we all had to go off to various places and ended the meeting.

A day later, I got a series of nasty messages from this used-to-be-close friend. He had the misunderstanding that I got all our other friends to say the same thing as I did.

*SHOCKED*

Why would I do that?

What would I gain from doing that?

And HOW in the world can I manipulate 5 other adult minds? I'm not really a magician.

I know that the best advice in the world would sound like bad music to hardened ears. But to accuse another person of plotting against you is another matter.

Normally, I vent out these frustrations by asking everyone I know if this could be true, especially for those who were present. But I have also responded that I would not discuss about him to anyone. So I am fighting HARD to keep to my words.

I know that the accusations are false and unfounded. Yet, I cannot help but to hear those words ringing endlessly in my mind. I go to bed with them. I wake up with them.

Its sickening!

I need to drown them out with something more pleasant!