Resistance is futile

i have been resisting the urge to post a blog here as it is usually a not a pretty read. It is also important for me or people like me to be more positive, get on with life and enjoy it with laughter.

(cos my TCM doctor says that for the woman, our hormonal cycle is closely tied in with our emotional status, which means if u r unhappy, ur hormones are unlikely to perform optimally. Which perhaps explains the numerous operations that I have usually occurs AFTER a pretty depressing moment of my life which I perhaps have too cleverly hide it under wraps and pretend that all's well.)

I guess trying to be positive about something you cant let go off is not easy. Especially when you get daily reminders of it.

So I'm going to lift it up to God, to decide what He wants to do with my life. Its in His hands now!