Not so exciting times

somehow the excitement of IVF has kinda diminished into the thin air.

What's left is the dread of daily jabs, one in the morning which I give to myself. One in the evening which the nurses will jab me with at my battocks.

These hormonal jabs are also bringing my body into a dis-equilibrium.... getting hot flushes, sleep-less-ness, easily agitated, mood swings, slight depression, mild anxieties and a sense that maybe it might not work.

Guess I'm burdening myself with too many unhappy thoughts. But I'm also feeling tired more then ever!!! I need lots of sleep!!

about 12hrs/day is good hahaha

One of the blood test indicates that I have high antibodies towards my own thyroid glands, which is not very good in many sense. Worse still, they found a tiny lump on the right side of my thyroid gland. Its too tiny now to for us to be worried about it. but its still not a good piece of news. As we cannot discount that slightly higher antibodies as a result of an overdose of seafood 2weeks before the blood test was taken... :(

am worried constantly