Nope not happening
It was a pretty steep uphill climb for us during this month of IVF treatment, while we were excited about the possible outcomes of a bigger family, we were also scared of failures.
Especially my hubby, he did not want to have any expectations because he was so afraid of it not happening.
In a way, I took his non-chalent attitude as if he din care much. But his actions showed that he cared very much, in fact much more than myself.
The daily injections was taking a toll on me as I started with taking the injections early in the morning to cater for going to work, however, later on in the program, work became more flexible, I was able to do it at home hence I was just waking up in the morning to inject myself and going back to sleep. My body was really exhausted in a way, I sleep more than 12 hrs a day. (yep resulting in me not being very productive).
The days draw near for the eggs extraction procedure but I was filled with fear rather than excitement. The "performance" of the eggs in my body does not seems to respond well to the hormonal jabs. Hence we did not see many matured eggs in the ovary, due to timing in the cycle for the body, we were forced to extract whatever we could find.
Only to discover that the two biggest looking "eggs" where actually blanks. (aka empty shells). After some digging, my doc found two other less mature eggs and extracted them. There's good chance that they will mature nicely in the lab and be fertilised and develop and be ready to be implanted after 3 days.
3 days came and went. The eggs have yet to be matured.
*sad* *very sad*
Doc say, give it another few more days to mature, if it does, they will fertilised the eggs with the sperm and if it develops sucessfully, then it'll be frozen and wait for my next menstral cycle before they can put it back in.
Doc was trying to cheer us up by telling us that they have a higher success rate for frozen embryos to reach full pregnancy then those that were used fresh.
Hence, we are taking it that its not happening.
However, there is still a chance, a small, tiny, mini chance. If God will bless us. Now.
Especially my hubby, he did not want to have any expectations because he was so afraid of it not happening.
In a way, I took his non-chalent attitude as if he din care much. But his actions showed that he cared very much, in fact much more than myself.
The daily injections was taking a toll on me as I started with taking the injections early in the morning to cater for going to work, however, later on in the program, work became more flexible, I was able to do it at home hence I was just waking up in the morning to inject myself and going back to sleep. My body was really exhausted in a way, I sleep more than 12 hrs a day. (yep resulting in me not being very productive).
The days draw near for the eggs extraction procedure but I was filled with fear rather than excitement. The "performance" of the eggs in my body does not seems to respond well to the hormonal jabs. Hence we did not see many matured eggs in the ovary, due to timing in the cycle for the body, we were forced to extract whatever we could find.
Only to discover that the two biggest looking "eggs" where actually blanks. (aka empty shells). After some digging, my doc found two other less mature eggs and extracted them. There's good chance that they will mature nicely in the lab and be fertilised and develop and be ready to be implanted after 3 days.
3 days came and went. The eggs have yet to be matured.
*sad* *very sad*
Doc say, give it another few more days to mature, if it does, they will fertilised the eggs with the sperm and if it develops sucessfully, then it'll be frozen and wait for my next menstral cycle before they can put it back in.
Doc was trying to cheer us up by telling us that they have a higher success rate for frozen embryos to reach full pregnancy then those that were used fresh.
Hence, we are taking it that its not happening.
However, there is still a chance, a small, tiny, mini chance. If God will bless us. Now.
posted by Jen | 8:52 AM
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