The night before the op....

I've been told to sleep early.....

Because in a few hours time, I'll be checking into a 5* hospital to do my 5th surgery in 9years.

When I knew about the recurring condition 5yrs ago, I asked myself if there was anything to fear about the operation and the answer in my head was NO. So when I readily told my gynea that I'll do the op again for the 4th time in 2001, I really thought that it was no big deal.

How wrong I was.......

The coldness of the operating theatre was fought off by piling 4 layers of blanket on myself. But the desire to sleep forever from the operation was hardest to struggle through. I recall pulling away from waking up. Maybe it was because my body knew that the recovery process was going to be really really really painful........

oh yes, painful.......

imagine a hard file across your abdomen, walk with it, sleep with it. you are practically immobilized.

yep, you can bet that i kinda scolded myself for undermining the PAIN from the surgery.

So well, now that I've to face it for the 5th time. What do I do?? 

There are quite a lot of pitfalls leh....

My counter-action. Dun think about it.

Not at all.

Just Do It.

Why do you think i'm still up at 5am.

My strategy is to starve my body of so much sleep that I'll just knock out anyway on the bed tomorrow ha ha ha.... go into it with a zombie state of mind, it'll numb all anxieties and sense for fear and pain!